How can I be so young and feel so alone? Nothing seems to interest me anymore: not my books, not my friends, not my PC. I don’t even like to go out anymore. I wish I could tell someone the way I feel, but I know they won’t understand because I don’t understand myself. My pain is choking me. It’s unbearable. Sometimes I cry all night. Other times I can’t find any tears. I’m full of emptiness. My feelings don’t exist anymore. I wish it would run away. I do. I spend everyday locked in my room trying to figure out who I am. I don’t even know myself anymore. If there is a God, why isn’t he helping me? What have I done to live like this? What do I have to do to prove to him that I don’t wanna be here? If anyone knew what I’ve been holding inside of me, they’d think I’m crazy. Am I crazy? Am I crazy for not knowing my purpose…..
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- Written by: Ashley Moran